How to live in a crazy ambiguous world?

'Morality,’ Beauvoir said, ‘resides in the painfulness of an indefinite questioning.’

When I (Varya) was a teenager, we’d often debate issues of freedom of expression in class. I’d slump in my chair as the conversation went on around me. Some called for absolute freedom; while others advocated for freedom with limitations. When the teacher asked me what I thought, it was as though my voice was stuck to the very lowest part of myself. I d…